Here. Take this.

What's up world? It's Monday again, but today is a special Monday. Since tomorrow is election day, there is no class. Since there is no class tomorrow, tonight is like a Friday! Yeah! So we have a nice little evening set up to properly celebrate. First off, a nice solid hour or two of relaxing blogging. That shit never fails to set me straight. Then, around 7:15 or so I leave to pick up Karen and go to the UK Basketball game! And of course UK basketball games go pretty damn hard. So then after the game is over, it's just the start to the night! I come back to South C, drop Karen off, pick up Tom and Slokes and it's BRO NIGHT. Haggin allows 24/7 visitation for BROS ONLY so we're gonna have a nice time. And it won't be cramped or anything since I have room to chill in my dorm room that sleeps three comfortable. We have plenty to look forward to on this calm Monday night.

Brb, I'm gonna trim my nails, they're bothering me. Ok that's much better. Thanks for your patience.

Karen and I got a fish today. It's name is Spongebob. He lives in a Pineapple under the sea and is blue and pretty and swims around all day without a care in the world. It's the perfect little addition to my huge dorm. I'm worried that my bros are gonna try to get him drunk tonight by pouring vodka into it's tank. This is the type of shit you have to worry about in college...

I just hit some serious writers block. Goddamnit. I can't think of anything to write about, which is a problem when I'm trying to blog. Got it.

I have a random interest in pharmacology. I think the study of drugs and what they all do to screw you up is terribly interesting. I'm not the only one either, a lot of people share this interest but most people keep it to themselves because for some reason in this society it's incriminating to know how narcotics work. But boy for some reason I just can't get enough information about it. Admittedly, I'm fairly confident I could cook up a batch of working meth just because I spend so much free time just researching all this information about drugs.

But the more I research, the more I begin to discover for myself that drugs are bad! But not for reasons you might assume. Of course getting addicted to any drug begins to age and toxify your body until you die, and of course every drug comes with a handful of ways to easily enter respiratory depression (i.e. DEATH). But it's not the safety and health concerns that make me believe drugs are the essence of the devil.

I've gained a huge insight on drugs from my years of research which is stemmed from boredom. And I've spent a lot of time thinking about it. The truth of the matter is that you could plan and ration drug use to an incredible extent and your chances of harming yourself will be quite low. You could take a drug like heroin, figure out a proper dose, administer the drug safely and do it just once, and you will not do much harm to your body. In fact, from what I've read online, it seems like many lawyers, doctors, teachers, PILOTS, etc. partake in this subtle drug use. Of course many of them get caught and lose their job; many get addicted and their life spins out of control, and there's always the occasional overdose. But there are people online with college degrees and six figure salaries who admit to relaxing to a line of cocaine now and then. Think about it. Heroin is almost identical in makeup to prescription pain medicine. Cocaine was legal 80 years ago. Methamphetamine is prescribed to CHILDREN with attention deficit problems. Drug use is a lot safer than CSI: Miami makes it out to be, it's just very few people can handle it without fucking up their lives.

I'm fairly certain that if I were to spend just ONE NIGHT doing heroin or crack or whatever I was given, I'd have the ability and cognitive discipline to still go about my life without messing anything up. In fact I could probably do it a couple times a year and not mess anything up. Drugs don't pose a safety concern, and the problem with addiction is literally all in the mind. However, there is one looming reason that has me convinced drugs are chemicals put in this universe for the sole purpose of spreading evil.

The way drugs work is very simple. Each drug (the popular ones at least) is a different chemical that uses a different method to do the same thing to your brain. In your brain, there are these receptors everywhere. These receptors fire off and receive different chemicals in response to different stimuli. There's ones for fear, love, excitement, etc. It's essentially how your emotions work. Well there's a certain chemical and receptor for happiness. It's called "dopamine". Whenever you're happy or something good happens (money, getting laid, your team wins, etc) this dopamine is fired around your brain spreading the message that you are happy. So the chemicals in crack and cocaine and whatever simply get into your brain, and tell it to go crazy on the dopamine. A lot of dopamine means a lot of happiness and this is the part where the user gets high.

But what part about that is evil? Well the human brain simply isn't accustomed to handling these chemicals. After drug has left brain, the brain just stops firing off dopamine completely. In fact, the brain doesn't fire off anymore dopamine for like three days! Some drugs take away dopamine for weeks! Since there's no dopamine in your brain, that means you don't have an ounce of happiness.

On any average moment, when your brain is at it's baseline you still have a constant flow of dopamine keeping you sane. After a night on drugs, there is zero happiness being released. None. Which means you're not going to have a SINGLE happy thought for days. This type of misery is only comparable to the loss of a loved one, going bankrupt, etc. It drains your happiness entirely. This is what makes drugs so damn addicting, since the only thing to get your happiness back is a chemical. But even if you fought the irresistible urge to use again, and you never touched a drug again in your life, in my opinion your life is still ruined.

The human brain is actually capable of dealing with such a huge surge of dopamine. There are actually a few times in a persons life that a similar amount of dopamine is released without the aide of any chemicals. The brain shoots off loads of happiness during those crucial points in a person's life that are never forgotten. Those days become memories that people describe as "their happiest moment in life" or whatever. It's when you're high on life. These are times like the birth of your first child, the first day a pilot takes to the sky, or days that you truly accomplish something. Once you've earned it, your brain can naturally release enough dopamine to make your hair stand on end. And when that happens, whatever you just did will become the happiest moment of your life.

This is the reason I believe drugs are evil. When a person has grown old and is preparing to die, their satisfaction in life will remain in their most cherished memories. Their most cherished memories will be of their happiest moments, which is just whenever their brain has released the most dopamine. If they've ever done a hard drug in their life, the happiest moments they look back on will be of them shooting up in their mom's basement, taking ecstasy in a warehouse, or god-forbid speedballing in an alley downtown. Their happiest memories won't be of anything of value, just empty shells of the times they'd taken a chemical to make themselves happy.

When I die, which is hopefully not soon, I want my happiest moments to be of me on top of the world. I want to look back on accomplishment after accomplishment and my memories to be filled with laughter and smiles that weren't created by a chemical. If there is a God, he put smiles and laughter in this world to make and spread happiness, and he used dopamine as the pipeline. If you follow the plan he's made for us then there is no need for meth and heroin and crack.

Think about it. If you were the devil, wanting to spread evilness and homelessness and hunger and theft and sadness and everything bad, what do you think the easiest way of doing that would be?

"Here. Take this; this will make you happy."